Who Cares

my fault

November 18th, 2008

Its my fault its all my fault ive let this happen i did it i made it i have to live with it the pain the guilt the everything and nobody knows how it feels no one does and no one will ever know how it feels im all alone in this – my fault

The pain

October 27th, 2008

NEVER GOES AWAY>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>CUT

do i matter

October 21st, 2008

the answer is no i do not…never have never will- maybe one day but im not counting on anything- why should i, i put my whole heart into things and they never happen so i give up im done im tired and all i want to do is cut the pain out , maybe i was just born to feel pain every damn day of my life-not doing well these days but who the fuck cares-maybe its all in my head right so maybe i should just tell myself to shut the fuck up and be fucking happy and just hold it all in well i did that for awhile and look where it got me – no where except to the life of a cutter- yes thats me IM A CUTTER and i fucking hate it but can not seem to escape it then again maybe i like the pain im rambling right now and it doesnt matter cuz no one reads these anyway

i hate this

October 9th, 2008

maybe if i bang my head enough times maybe i will stop this feeling in my head, maybe it will stop all of my shit -i hate me i hate everything i want everything to go away ….to just fuck off and leave me the shit alone

nothing

October 1st, 2008

im nothing

im never good enough

as a child i was not good enough

as a teen i was not good enough

as a adult im not good enough

as a parent im not good enough

as a employee im not good enough

the rest of my life i will never be good enough

i am nothing

me….

September 29th, 2008

it’s all me….i’m worthless

im hopeless

im not a good person

i scream, i yell, i cry

i want out of it all- just leave me

im done

Damaged

September 24th, 2008

I’m damaged, always have been. Never good Never well Never wanted Never needed ……wonder why I am still here.

words

September 17th, 2008

no matter what i say my words are always fucked up, i vent and people get pissed so i figured what the hell im done im done with it all im done telling people how i really feel and what i really want to do. cuz after all no one stays around – they always leave me..they fucking always leave me.

feel

September 11th, 2008

i feel like i do not belong here or anywhere.

im exhausted

im crying

im hurting

im cutting

maybe one day it will all go away, until then maybe i need to go away from everything and everybody

invisible

September 9th, 2008

its so fucking god damn bitchin true

i know this and you know this too

im done i can not go on anymore living like this

who really cares if im gone ummmmmmmm…NO ONE!!

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